Hello myself! How are you? 😊😊😊 Ok, this is creepy~ HA-HA-HA
I've been in love.. yes, I know most of you also have been in that phase of life = FIRST LOVE..! some ended with a happy marriage life while some, well..... you know lah.. 😝😝😝
in my case, it didn't end up like how i imagined it would be.. my fault, i guess.. too happy in my own little dream.. let's skip on how we met, how we fell, how we end.. I don't want to go through that pathetic crying phase again.. 😊😊😊
was I sad? of coz! it was too heartbreaking, too painful that i still can't forgive him.. i did try, but it's just too hard.. now, looking back at those happy times, knowing that they were all lies, makes me realize how dumb and stupid of myself.. to trust and love someone so easily.. well, i quess i was too excited at that moment of time.. falling in love at the age of 25, first love, with no experience.. can you imagine the excitement? 😜😜😜
do I blame him? at first, yes, I did fully blame him.. but i don't know la.. I think putting all the blame on myself is a lot easier.. It somehow calm myself.. i have no idea why.. weird? yeah, you can say that..
will I take him back? well, one thing for sure, I'm 100% positive that he will never ever come back.. I mean, why would he?? he didn't even love me.. never was and never will.. it was maybe just a fling for him.. lagipon, siapa lah kita ni kan? I'm a nobody.. 😂😂😂
do I hate him? ok, lets make one thing clear.. I know I will never ever forgive him for what he did, but I will never hate him.. it's hard to hate someone that you truly love.. even of it's a one-sided love.. 😉😉😉
that's all for now.. first post after a looooooooong hiatus.. i know this post is very unorganized.. my grammar, my arrangements, OH MY GOD..!! but no worries, I will do better next time.. too sleepy now.. 😴😴😴
to you who broke my heart, do take note that I still love and care for you.. and I do miss you.. maybe not as much as how I used to coz the heart is broken.. I know you don't even care but I still want you to know.. only here, where you or anyone else will never read.. good night!
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